Preaching

It is hard to realize that most people don't want to hear of another salvation experience and how your life changed because of it. As Christians we preach the gospel and we know Jesus' words that we will be persecuted because of it and I get the image of some rampaging government angry that we are preaching the gospel to its people but what about those patient people who act interested and kind but inside are groaning "Oh no not another one." I am afraid to preach because I don't want to inconvenience people and i don't want to preach and have it be meaningless. i would feel as if I was doing it wrong like I had missed some key and that if I just approached another way and did not preach head on or tell my story that people would get saved but Isaiah spent his entire ministry preaching to a people who he knew would not listen but he did it anyway because God told him to. Also In Russia God told me that my testimony had power and I that I was to use it and when I did Igor's heart was moved to listen to me. He opened up to me and the story stayed with him days later. I know that Tim Awtrey in Bulgaria said that your approach to non-Christians should be slow and not filled with a lot of speech about Christianity but mostly friendship evangelism but he always pushes boundaries and he has a gift for it. He can push a little and get a conversation out of it that had the Bulgarians asking questions and he not boldly preaching to them. I do not have that talent and I wish I did. I am blunt about the truth. i am perceptive and I like to work to help people with their physical and emotional needs. i also like to teach people about God's truth.

Is part of our "persecution" to preach and have people be kind and hope that a seed will be planted for later. I want to be thought well of. i think my biggest fear is to not be thought well of and it is much easier for me to handle harsh persecution for the cause of the gospel than to have somebody be patient and kind but on the inside be wanting to just tune me out and get up and leave. i don't want to be looked at as "that" person but i wonder if that is my cross of persecution that I have to bear because I fear it so much.