Ravish me so I may be chaste

BATTER my heart, three person'd God; for, you
As yet but knocke, breathe, shine, and seeke to mend;
That I may rise, and stand, o'erthrow mee,'and bend
Your force, to breake, blowe, burn and make me new.
I, like an usurpt towne, to'another due,	5
Labour to'admit you, but Oh, to no end,
Reason your viceroy in mee, mee should defend,
But is captiv'd, and proves weake or untrue.
Yet dearely'I love you,'and would be loved faine,
But am betroth'd unto your enemie:	10
Divorce mee,'untie, or breake that knot againe;
Take mee to you, imprison mee, for I
Except you'enthrall mee, never shall be free,
Nor ever chast, except you ravish mee. -John Donne God forgives me when I wander away and choose men over Him. I repent and He forgives me. He allows me to follow Him again and even reminds me of life with Him, all He has done for me, and promises to do for me but the first guy that comes along that I find mildly attractive or the first opportunity I have to present my past life to people for acceptance I take it. I leave God a thousand times a day. I say to Him I know that You have the true answers but I want the world's answers. I keep thinking it won't all fall on my head. If can keep repenting God won't let it fall on my head and eventually I will believe God has the answers and want His answers more than the worlds but I keep getting seduced by the world in seconds I choose it over God. I am so sorry God. Please help me. Please I want to follow You help me to want to follow you more than I want the things of the world. Please my heart seems weaker. I can't stop revive my heart again. I repent for choosing men and the things of the world over You: mans opinion, romance, sex, cigarettes, comfort, lack of emotional pain, etc.. God I believe in your forgiveness, renew my heart. I am here and I surrender. I wait. Sara